A neurotics life

I'm now officially 21 years old .Can you imagine that?I thought being in your twenties would feel different than when you were in your teenage years. But I don't see any signs of my body slowing down. I love life! Despite my traumatic childhood with my mother, it was la dulce vita!

There are sooo many things to change and explore in this wide wide world. I have soo many dreams, soo many plans, sooo many ambitions but one thing that flashes like a danger sign to me is the age of 25. I and my best buds has made a pact that by then we are going to be independent financially and rich beyond our peers. That would be an accomplishment. I make money out of my little acesory business but I do badly in handling my money.

I can spend money in one day without knowing where my money went. That is one problem that I should change. I will be going nowhere with an empty pocket.

Here is a trivia for you. Do you know that my special someones birhday is today? And our second anniversary is today?

Do you think that is fate? We are both Arians and he is like a ying to my yang.

Sweet life!

Today I thank God for the many blessing that He has continually showered me. I felt His love with every jazz rhythm of my cellphone, with every greetings i received, with the laughter that surrounded me and his warmth in the shared embraces and firm hand clasps.
It has been almost a ritual to spend my birthday on the beach with the Gwapo Gang, owing to the fact that my birthday would always fall on summer and that me being a water baby.
Baluarte was our turf today and the shoreline my kingdom. with my Bob Marley inspired skimboard, I rode the waves with careless abandonement and a conscious effort not to wet my shorts.
Yes dear reader. Today all the stress knots in my body simply dissolved for today at long last I was blissfully happy. It was not canned laughter but happiness that comes from deep within. And as I sat tonight in fornt of this screen, it dawned on me that I am one lucky girl.
Do you want to know who was at the beach with me today?
well, here goes...
Emma
Liza B.
Liza A.
Marc Leo
Leo James
Roy
Ricart
Nyx
Rexel
Later, we headed out to Sulod Grill for barbecue and sodas.

Don Poldo suggested we have lunch at Ocho yesterday. I almost choked in my bile. I can't help but yak on about th eoppurtunity cost of spending 200Php on lunch at Ocho when I can buy four chickenjoy with that amount. Taliking about waste of money.
I wonder where he gets his money. He says its from his aunts husband who is a foreigner. But money runs out. I wonder what excuses he tells his aunt and uncle so he can acquire a refrigerator for his apartment and other stuffs.
At times I think he is such a humbug. He boasts about how easily he can buy things and even assumes that the people around him can also afford it. We are not Poor. We are not rich either but i can't help but be careful that I spend my money wisely.
I also have this classmate, charmaigne, she's a sweet nice thing but I can't help comment on how loud she says her prayers. Hello! Just because she was chosen as the commentator during our AHSE graduation doesnt mean she has to act as a commentator throughout summer school!

Practically everyone in my barkada has seen My Sassy Girl, both the one with the underscript and the dubbed Tagalog Version.
do you really think it is true? Ang cute ng story. i've seen Windstruck-the explanation behind sassy girls quirky sadistic tendencies. Imaginin mo, she made the guy do those stuffs para ma remind siya sa ex niya na namatay.
It's interesting how our lives are intertwined and separated by at least six degrees.
Watching the movie inspired me to share my love stories....haaayyyy..i'm such a romantic at heart and has always believed in fate and destiny.
Mushy feelings aside...
Yesterday, my clique and I did the station of the Cross at Nula Tula. I"ve never been there but the place is sooo beautiful. The peak has a wishing well and chapels. It eve offers you a view of the San Juanico Bridge and the rest of Tacloban City.
Would you believe that in the 1980's when the San Juanico Bridge was being built, urban legends say that young children were eing kidnapped as far as Samar so that their blood can be offered to the anitos? They say that it is done so that the foundation of the bridge will be stronger. Usually it would only be white chickens and pigs that would be offered.
Creepy right?

It's EAster Sunday!!!!Happy EAster everyone!!
Can anybody please take me to an Easter egg hunt?I've never been to one. I don't even know what an easter bunny is. I've just read about these stuffs.
Today is The Second National Skimboarding Competition at Tanauan. They say that skimboarding in the Philippines hails from there. I'm so excited. I think I'm going there later this afternoon. Yipeee!!!

I've got my cavities filled up and hopefully drive away future toothaches. i don't know why I kept postponing getting it fixed. Now I fear growing old w/ just dentures to suppert my facial features. what would I look like then? My thick lips might help though but It'll still get ugly.
Probably today's dental job was my embarassing moment. The guy who was suctioning my saliva was my high school crush!Horrors of horrors!
How gross can you get? He got to see my cavities and smelled my reeking breath!

I have suffered three long and agonizing semesters of oppression in her class. Let's call her Ms.T. T for terrifying, terrible and as she often call herself a terrorist. I just received my midterms result for Rizal yesterday and as usual the test consisted of essays.
I have always prided myself for articulately plotting out and delivering my rebuttals but for Ms.T's class I always get low grades for essys. This is au contraire to my other teachers who would always give me high credits for essay questions. I feel this is unfair especially when I see my other classmates acing the exam eventhough their grammar sucks and their defences sinks.
Rationalizing things, I told myself that maybe it's because I can't stop myelf from using highly technical words and I usually would notice that she would underline these words in red ink and deem them inappropriate. Inappropriate or is it that she can't understand them?
My teacher for Theology last sem. who was a nun said that probably nurisng is not my line of vocation. That instead I would have aimed and strived to be a writer. I would love that but I love making accessories better and satisfying my kikay side. The muses beckons me.
And it sadens me why Ms. T refuses to see the penchant and talent I've got. I've already crid infront of her on my first year. I begged her to explain to me her reasons for giving me a low grade when I topped her exams. She said I have a zero in recitation. That is absurd! I would have loved to cuss in front of her to yell at her and condemn her. But I did not! ME with my idle hands who can't keep from reciting got a zero in recitation!Hogwash!

Yes my bestfriends, the Twins, has left me.
Me best bud liza is leaving me too.
They have just had their graduation rites yesterday. I should have been one of them. I should have worn the saklay. I should have worn a white dress designed by me. I should have been one of the rowdy graduate.But sadly I'm not.
In the middle of my course hopping in UP, my aunts decided that I transfer to another school. It seemed to me, the best thing, especially when my lola was almost at deaths door. It still is the best thing. In my new school I have learned salient study habits. But taking up nursing has made my future certain. That I am, eventually, in the long run, be a doctor. That is my dream. That is my aunts dream. That is the main purpose why I took up Biology and nursing.
And amidst this all, I fear that...what if I don't become a doctor? I'll settle being a nurse then. But what if I'm not contented with being a nurse? Being a nurse is tooo routine and I am a girl who easily gets bored. What placates me is the thought of going abroad. Perhaps heading to London where Liza is going to be based a few days from now.It makes me happy to know that someday I"ll be joining the Filipino diaspora and earning dollars. But I'll be back. Because there is no place like home.
Emma and Liza are asking me where will the path of life take them in the real world. Soon they will be part of the blue collared who works the 8-5 shift. They might also opt to work in call centers. I envy them. They will be living a life of their own and spending money they make.
Now, I'm going to be all alone in this small town.
I've got the boys. But girlfriends are always the best.

F I R S TS

First best friend: Jenny
First pets: hmmm..i dunno a parrot i think
First piercing/tattoo: Ears

L A S T S

Last car ride: Two days ago when i hitched a ride
Last good cry: I don't remember
Last thing to make you laugh: My friends Eglish BF
Last beverage drank: Water
Last food consumed: wafer sticks
Last phone call: from anthony
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: My school shoes
Last item bought: wafersticks
Last annoyance: the diapers of my neighbors which the dog dragged to our front gate
Last time wanting to die(or thought about death): hmm...when i was anticipating failing to make the cut off-

S P E C I F I C S

What kind of shampoo do you use? : Sunsilk

What are you most scared of ?: sparks..electrical sparks..steel sparks..sparks..sparks...
What are you listening to right now?: the broomstick scrathing the cement
Where do you want to get married?: in a garden overlooking the ocean
Where do you want to live?: in a bahay kubo
How many buddies are online right now?: one but she left

F A V O R I T E S

Color: purple and black and pink would be the runner ups
Food: Spicey food!!!
Boy name: Juan
Girl name: Maria
Subjects in school: RLE
Abbreviation: OMG!
Animals: fishes
Sports: skimboarding, soccer

H A V E Y O U E V E R

Given anyone a bath?: yup..
Bungee jumped?: No
Skinny dipped: Nope
Ever been in love?: yah
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: yup
Been rejected?: a lot of times
Rejected someone?: Yeaah...
Done something you regret?: yes


L A S T P E R S O N

You touched: my aunt
Hugged: my aunt
You IMed: emma
IMed you: tatagirl
called you: anthony
You called: tita aline
Bought you flowers: nobody

W H O D O Y O U W A N N A

Kill: all the roaches in the world
Slap: pledgees heheheheh

W H I C H I S B E T T E R

Coke or Pepsi: coke
Flowers or candy: flowers
Tall or Short: taller than me

R A N D O M

When i wake up the first thing i think: gotta go to the loo
All I need is: contacts!!!
Love is: when you obsessively text someone
Last person you danced with: Myself lol..
How many kids do you want to have?: 1

D O Y O U E V E R

Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: when i was in elem.
Wish you were younger: nope id rather maintain my age ryt now .... forever

N U M B E R

Of times I have had my heart broken: once?
Of hearts I have broken: Lotsss...(i wish)
Of best friends: 4+15
Of scars on body: 2 major ones...