A neurotics life

GERARDALEANN G is for Glittering E is for Easy R is for Refined A is for Adventurous R is for Radical D is for Dainty A is for Alert L is for Legendary E is for Enlightened A is for Athletic N is for Naive N is for Natural What Does Your Name Mean? GAAAANNNUUNNN!!!!???? Your Birthdate: April 8 Born on the 8th day of the month, you have a special gift for business, as you can conceive and plan on a grand scale. You have good executive skills and you're a good judge of values. You should try to own your own business, because you have such a strong desire to be in control. You are generally reliable when it comes to handling money; you can be trusted in this regard. Idealistic by nature, you are never too busy to spend some time on worthwhile causes, especially if managerial support are needed. There is much potential for material success associated with this number. What Does Your Birth Date Mean? You Are 50% Weird Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it! How Weird Are You? TOLD YAH IM STILL NORMAL!!!

Yes I was a wee bit absent from my real self lately. I've been driftin into a mindlessness more often...into a dreamlike state where I concentrated on rejuvenating my battered ego.
LAst week I felt so sad why people would spread gossips and rumors about me. And ryt now since i'm feeling a wee bit ok about the topic I would like to face the issue and get it over with eventhough it shames me.
There maybe some truth about it as all gossips are. After all, there's no smoke if there's no fire. But basically it's none of your business what I do with my life. For this is my own life, my own body, my own doomed soul. Don't talk to me about concern cause if you really are spreading these gossips for my own sake, then stop ruining me and stop spreading lies. Yes these are partially lies. I'll let you in on a secret to lying, KEEP YOUR BASICS STRAIGHT!!!Who would believe you?I'm not from St.Agustin!!YOu idiot!Isnt it obvious with all these St.Scholastica brand on my body-my ID..my logo..my novice skirt..What more can you ask for!
I'm happy for my Tita Alines cuddling and Wawaw's support. Her mom too, ema,and ricart,nyx and marc leo. I wouldn't have gotten through that phase if they weren't there to support me and back me up.To make me feel good in myself and help me realize my potentials.
My recollection last wednesday also did help. IT dawned at me that I am well liked by my class. That even if some people spread rumors about me in a certain geographic location, a handful of people think I am special and I am someone to look up to.
Although it was an ego boosting event, I felt sad too. And I also realize that I should get to know a person better before judging them and desriminating them.
I hurt dante along the way. It is not his fault that this is happening. ALthough Tita said he should have protected me from it. The damage has been done. All I have to do now is to prevent its further spread.
So i stop seeing him.And break up with him.