A neurotics life

a pregnant pause in my otherwise self centered, vain life..
a moment of reflection..on my thoughts and actions and the repercussions..
of deep scrutiny of the people surrounding me..
their life..my life...
bloated bodies..edema...
my peers entering motherhood..
the circle of pregnant women are closing in on me
and i fear..that the circle will..
sooner or later...close in on me...
my sorosity sis...
my fellow wiccan..
my classmate..
and still counting..
all those familiar faces..
don't let it be me...

hmm...wheeeee...I'mm soooo happy..
one of my classmates phone got confiscated. i know that this sounds mean since im celebrating the loss of something held dear by someone. but in this case i feel vindicated..weeeee..
my tita bought me a new littman stethoscope...my CI is eyeing it and i know he is loving it since he always borrows it during demos..oh welll...salivate!!!!

Wow!!Makin love to your bestfriend who has a husband at that must feel freakin weird!!!I wonder what was up with guilty_pleasures cerebrum when he was doin IT!!
I love blog hoppin. It's like rality TV yet much more personal. It exploits mans need to confess. I read lots of shocking entries in here..sex..sex..mostly about sex..hehehehe..i wish i'll come across a murder confession one of these days..eeewww..lolz..morbid..but that would be exciting..ryt?
My friend Titus is leaving for Korea or was it Taiwan tomorrow. What a lucky guy!! I wish that someday ill be given the chance to be an exchange student. I've never been out of this country and I'm so excited about graduating from nursin. Then maybe I can go backpackin with Tita Aline and Tita Baby in Nepal and all over Asia doing missionary work. And then chase the American dream.
Now I'm longing for the white sandy beaches of Boracay. Wish I can go back next year...huhuhu..I want to skim..to go to the beach and feel the sands heat radiate and tingle my nerves. To feel the wind chapping your lips and blowing drying your hair. But how can I when I don't even have the luxury of sleep. All I do is read, memorize, study. No sleep at all. Just catnaps!!!
Lucky for me that I'm not susceptible to eyebags. Whats bothering me though is my chinkiness is much more pronounced.huhuhu..i need sleep...and i need the beach...

If I were living back when Magellan doesn't even know that Las Islas Filipinas even existed I would still have chosen to be a Bisayan woman, tattoed, bejeweled and above all fair skinned unlike now--I'm a morena. If you can call me that. Permanently tanned the whole year through.
I would have loved to have been called Diwata or Mabaysay..hehehe....and men would come acourting, willingly obliging to bigay-kaya, panghimuyat and bigay suso. Of course I would be a maharlika then. hehehehe..
I wish i could ahve seen the Philippines then, with all it's prestine beauty and diverse ethnic groups. Maybe it's the costume that I wore to class today that's making me nostalgic.
Next week I'll be going to class in a mestiza dress for the Spanish period. I love dressing up for class!! I'm proud to be a Pilipino. And most of all I'm prod to be a waray waray!!!

I had minimal fun last nyt. It was our beloved alma maters acquaintance party and the sisters of the orders of st. benedict were there for their all out support. it was the most fun i had since the fiesta.
I wore a black(as all my other tops colors are) and a pinstripped pants. I thought i was gorgeous the way i was until all the freshies started ramping on the stage.Oh my fashionistas to the hilt!!and i felt like i was a sore thumb in the crowd wearing black while the rest of the world are going gaga over olives and oranges!! TO top it all off, the villain of our class was also wearing pinstripes!!!arggghhhhh!!!nest time il be wearin pudra!!!see if anyone can top that off!!!

My entry today was suppposed to be about religion but something happened that made me change my mind.
I saw my ex..he did a double take..i just glanced and bit my lips.
Should i smile..smould i not?...