June 13th, 2005
i hate my ex II
I was so sad last Thursday cause i wasn't able to go to Sulangan w/ the twins and dulce. I heard its a surfers paradise there and i can't wait to bring my skimboard and test the waters.(I'm pretty good at sandskimming right now. I can manage the waves. Oh i've got scrapes and aches to prove it plus my eternal tan.)
When my Tita Aline and I ate out that evening, I decided to invite Liza to dine wih us. Enjoying the vegan meal that evening at Ocho, I think Liz got a teeny weeny bit guilty and spilled the beans at me. She said Darren's courting her. And right then and there I felt like a ton of bricks has crashed on me. I still love Darren. You never stop loving a person who was once part of your life. But this is not the reason why i whine and rant. this is not the reason why my eyes sting so often these days. It is because during the time he was courting liza he was wooing me back. On the day I left for Baguio he was begging me back and telling me I love you. When I say I love you, I mean it. but I think Darren was just playing w/ me all along. How could he be so callous(spell check plz) to court my close friend!!!my own turf!!there are so many fishes in the sea..why hit on my homie?arrrggghhhh
Does this make me feel less desirable?insecure?yes!yes!yes! Right now, Im at my lowest. I need someone to reassure me that I am still wanted and loved. Why does do I let Darren affect me this way? He calls me gay!he says I'm a spoiled brat..baby agal..mongo..Does he do these things on purpose? And if so why does he hate me so much?
Still Holding the Strings of my Emotions
When my Tita Aline and I ate out that evening, I decided to invite Liza to dine wih us. Enjoying the vegan meal that evening at Ocho, I think Liz got a teeny weeny bit guilty and spilled the beans at me. She said Darren's courting her. And right then and there I felt like a ton of bricks has crashed on me. I still love Darren. You never stop loving a person who was once part of your life. But this is not the reason why i whine and rant. this is not the reason why my eyes sting so often these days. It is because during the time he was courting liza he was wooing me back. On the day I left for Baguio he was begging me back and telling me I love you. When I say I love you, I mean it. but I think Darren was just playing w/ me all along. How could he be so callous(spell check plz) to court my close friend!!!my own turf!!there are so many fishes in the sea..why hit on my homie?arrrggghhhh
Does this make me feel less desirable?insecure?yes!yes!yes! Right now, Im at my lowest. I need someone to reassure me that I am still wanted and loved. Why does do I let Darren affect me this way? He calls me gay!he says I'm a spoiled brat..baby agal..mongo..Does he do these things on purpose? And if so why does he hate me so much?
Still Holding the Strings of my Emotions
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