A neurotics life

I was peacefully having my breakfast when my High Priestess daughter aproached me saying,"Ate,Mommy said be careful...you will loose something really important to you."
So there was I chugging down ice tea..nervously hugging my wallet and cellphone.
My High Priestess who is also my teacher in Humanities is known to have a malara tongue...so imagine my fear. I, for one.don't want to be stuck in my 2 day filed trip in Bohol and Cebu without my money,credit card,atms and cellphone. I don't care much about my accesories and make-ups. All that was on my mind at that moment was my wallet and cellphone.
Two days has passed...nothing happened...nada...as in none. I was thinkin,"Man!!!Pretty safe...maybe it was just a scare."
Whew!!! Guess what happened to me when I stepped out from the van that was carrying us home...
Nope it was not my wallet and no it was not my cellphone and difinitely it was not my girly stuffs...IT WAS MY EYEGLASSES!!!!
Now...looking back...my wallet and cellphone are nothing compared to my eyeglasses. Losing them is like loosing a part of me. how can I see without them? They are an extension of myself.
I remember getting off the van feeling scared and confused...
Is this it?My final initiation?Is there something else?

valentines day...my first time to have a real boyfriend and he didnt even give me anything...no nothing...even just a single gumamela or santan will do...ala me paki alam kahit kalachuchi pa yan...its the thought that counts namn dba? Nakaka sad...here i was savin my allowance for two weeks just to buy him this box of expensive chocolates...buti na lang d ko ibinigay...sa galit ko kinain ko lahat while watching sassy girl...i should have realized he will never give me anything...he has not even treated me out to think na 3 weeks nakami(duh im countin my days of suffering no!!)...so how much more ang simpleng pagbibigay ng bulaklak...i dont need some damn text message...loads of people texted me and greeted me happy valentines( a wish unfulfilled)...i need something tangible...something that would tickle my senses...textin is purely kaplastikan!!!you only do that when u dont have the guts to face somebody...u hide behind the lcd of ur phone hoping it will serve the same purpose as FPJ's espada...kakainis...first time nga magka roon ng real bf unromantic at insensitive namn!!! kaya what i did...sumama ako sa barkada ko nung high skul puros guys...naglagalag kami at sinuyod namin buong tacloban in my 2 inches wedge shoes...the pain my feet were feelin and the promise of corns and bunions was nothin compared to my mental anguish (anng love d nasa puso nasa mind and besides who said im in love?)of having not received a flower or petal man lang...buti pa barkada ko simpatico and fun to be with...not a boring moment with them...kaya ayunnnn dahil sa hinagpis that i was torturin that evenin sinama ko bestfriend ko naghanap kami ng wine at 1 in the evenin...my gawd wala bang decenteng grocery sa tac na tumatanggap ng credit card?....lahat ata ng malas nakakapit sa kin that day...why was it called the day of hearts anyway?...si st.valentines ba na in love na?hay naku...if only a guy would give me flowers i'l place it in a vase wit aspirin at tititigan ko every morning and before i sleep at night...ppag lanta na i'l press it in between my thick volumes of dictionary sa bahay tapos i papalaminate ko!!!!grrrrrr.....why am i gettin so freaked out about a flower that never was...

I don't usually swear and use cuss words. I only do this crude thingy when I get so pissed off with the fucking world and usually I do this in secret but today is different.
I'm not happy about how my life is running. Is this another initiation to my being a witch coz if it is maaaannn i wanna quit. this ain't fun anymore.
Grabe!Just the other day I was so psyched up that I was heading to Boracay. I already got my wardrobe planned and everything. My aunts and my mother has vetoed that I was gonna go and guess what?The usual ,they backed out at the last minute! The usual kill joy blood that runs in our veins!!! Why cant they act as normal ,sane beings for once and stop being the dysfunctional,paranormal retard they are?
Hello po!!!!A promise is a promise!!!They should have told me when I first asked that its impossible for me to go!!!Waaaa...just when I told the darn world I was going they won't allow me!!!
Maka arawod!!!I want to kill myself!!!Whoaaaa there goes my suicidal tendency again!!!What if I slash my wrist?Would they care?Or would they say"Bravo Ge-Ann you really are an excellent actress. Good play...another chika to tell my firneds!!" coz thats what I am to my aunts.. a source of entertainment!!
It's difficult to be the youngest in the family(well almost). coz if anyone is having a bad day you'll surely receive the rant. It's the cycle of life eh...If you are having troubles you want to share your misery with another person. Basically my life is like that...all the shit i take...but this shit is shit!!!Waaaaaa....